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Discovering Me

Sometimes I look around myself and I become resentful. In those times I let myself become a victim; I begin to blame others for doing this or that, things that prevent me from doing what I imagine I should do.  Then I sit back for a moment and see that my greatest culprit is me.

Like Ash Williams in the movie Army of Darkness I fight a battle with Army_of_Darkness_postermyself. One side suggest one thing and the other side fights against it. Which one will win?  Just as  the Cherokee Parable below, the side that will win is the side that I feed.



Two Wolves – A Cherokee Parable

An old Cherokee chief was teaching his grandson about life…
“A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy.
“It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves.
“One is evil – he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, self-doubt, and ego.
“The other is good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith.
“This same fight is going on inside you – and inside every other person, too.”
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather,
“Which wolf will win?”
The old chief simply replied,
“The one you feed.” 

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It is very easy to get caught up in self pity and resentment. In fact, you get a lot of encouragement to do so. There is not much difference in the way any of us behave whether we act as an individual, group, government or nation it all becomes the same when we analyze it.

We live in the environment that we have created. I cannot blame another, I am who I am by my own acts. I cannot change what I have done no more so than change who I am. What I can change is what I do and how I do it. I can change the way I feel about something or someone. More significantly is that I can change how I feel about myself.

If I should spend time on discovering something then perhaps I should spend time discovering me. It is not unusual for me to let my mind drift back to my early years. Sometimes my reactions about those years are cloy. Other times I am disparaging about myself. There are things that I did as a child I do not understand, some good, some not so good. I struggle to discover from where these thoughts or actions originated. Was it from something that I saw as a child or something that I carried forward from a past life?

I do not know the answers to these questions.  I am fairly convinced that whatever the source it is something that defined who I am today. This definition of who I am today is also part good and part bad. I have done things of which I regret. I have done things of which I am proud. Neither of these paths define who I am, they are just a part of my past. I must always see the past for what it was and take from it lessons on how I should be tomorrow. 

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I cannot change the memories of the past. I know this. I also know that what I do today will become the memories of tomorrow. When tomorrow comes will I feel good about the memories that I created? 

The greatest memory will be the love that I shared. God loves us. Love always.




Its Only Physical

Since as long as I can remember I have been uncomfortable with my physical body. Perhaps, it is because of that feeling that I have abused it.  The physical abuse I have put my body through has varied, the most significant of which is my obsession with food.  I think it is more about the taste of food than the desire for food itself.  Because of this obsession with taste I frequently eat much more than I need to survive. When it comes to eating, I simply live to eat. I don’t eat because I am hungry, I eat to satisfy my taste buds.

Early in life we are taught about our physical senses; touch, taste, sight, sound, and smell. My preference to these five has always been taste, then sight and touch. I don’t listen very well and I generally admit that I don’t have a good sense of smell. If I am honest with myself, I must also admit that my sense of taste is not that great either as I can rarely discern different flavors or spices from each other.

I can say that I am obsessed with the taste of food yet when I investigate it further I discover that I don’t know anything about the specific taste of food. With me it is more like I am presented something to eat and it taste good so I eat it for the taste. I don’t think I have always been this way. What I have come to realize is that I can fast for many hours with no problem whatsoever, however, the moment I taste something I continue to eat even after I am full. It is a physical thing. In my mind I do not want to eat but the physical body insist on another bite. I call this a physical obsession. Physical obsessions block our connection to our spiritual self (true self).

Try to understand the difference between the physical self and the spiritual self. The physical self is only temporary. Although temporary our physical existence is important. If the physical was not important then we could not be here. We life a physical life and we must provide for our physical needs. The question I ask myself is at what point due I stop serving the physical and instead serve the spiritual?

Now, consider the spiritual self. The spiritual self is always. You are who you are whether in physical or spiritual state. There is only one self, which I call the true self. Although we cannot recall what it is like to be outside the physical in the spiritual state, the spiritual state is still very important for us and should not be ignored as it is who you are. That said, you should not worry about who you are, rather consider the principles of what it means to live a good life (physical state).

Life is a miracle. The beauty of our existence is indescribable, from the moment we are created by God, to the moment of our first transition, it is a miraculous event. Understanding this miracle opens my mind to understand what it means to be in the physical state. No matter what I do or say while in the physical state, in the end, I will always return to the place of love (spiritual state). From love we are created and to love is where we return.

What we do between those two transitions are important to us. Although it is the spiritual self that defines who we truly are, the physical self takes priority and redefines who we are as the current physical self.  Understand, the change is only temporary. No matter what happens to the physical self, at the moment of transition you always return to the true self.

We live our lives for a purpose; a purpose that we create and we should continue to do so. Our earthly plans are far more complex and integrated than we could ever imagine. In fact, even the step to take the time to read this posting and then talk to another about it could be woven into someone’s plan. For others, the reading of this posting is only a “free option,” and option without purpose. Whatever the case, what we do is important to us and that is why we do it. What I suggest is that we do not ignore who we truly are while we live this life.  After all, it is only physical.

God loves you regardless of what you do.

Love always






Do you have any habits? It’s a funny sounding word, I must admit. More funny may be some of the habits that we share. For example, young children may pick up the habit of picking their nose. Most of us have probably done this more than once, after all, it is important to have an unobstructed airway in order to breathe. (smile)Gods_Love

A behavior becomes a habit my regular repetition until the point that it becomes automatic or habitual. Years ago when I smoked cigarettes, whenever I stopped to talk with someone my right hand would automatically reach toward my shirt pocket to get a cigarette. Even after I quit smoking, for a long time afterward, I would still reach for a cigarette each time I stopped to talk with someone.

Some habits that we develop are good while others are not so good. For example, we can develop habits of simply preparing to go to work. Each morning when we get up we must proceed through our normal morning routines. IMAG0381These routines can also be defined as habits if they are performed in a nearly automatic fashion. There have been times where I have completed my morning rituals of preparing to leave for work and suddenly, while driving down the road all of a sudden realizing that I could hardly recall anything that had happened since I woke that morning.

A habit can be formed by any repetitive behavior. Consider these types of behaviors: Yelling at your children or spouse;angry being angry at your boss or a coworker; gossiping; arguing; speaking too loud; criticizing others; slovenly acts; cursing; being rude. If we repeat these behaviors frequently there will come a time when the behavior is so automatic that we will not even know we are doing it.

We can become prisoners to our habits. Someone may ask us why we do something and we might not even know why or we may say that we have always done it this way. Governments develop habits the same was as individuals. If we look close enough we can see that bad habits, such as over spending, are equally destructive to both the individual and governments.

I do not want to be angry. I do not want to yell, criticize, argue or fight. I would like to throw away habits of self-indulgence. I do not want to be afraid anymore.

I want to be aware of all things that I do. I wish to always do the right things for the right reasons. I believe that we can change our habits just like I was able to change my habit of smoking cigarettes. In the case of smoking, one day I decided that I would not smoke cigarettes anymore and on that day I simply broke the habit. It was a choice that I made in order to live a longer life. If I am to live a longer life then that life must be worth living and therefore I must toss aside the bad habits that I have developed and either replace them with good habits or just leave that space open for the opportunity to do something more spontaneous.

Practice love and you can love, practice caring and you will care. Practice sharing and you will share, practice giving and you will relish in your generosity.

Investigate your habits.


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What are you doing habitually of which you are not aware?  Are you kind and generous or mean and resentful? Perhaps you think yourself one way but act contrary to your thoughts due to habits.

Whatever you do, know that it is your choice as to how you behave. Regardless of your choices God will never love you more or less due to those choices. God infinite love for you is unconditional.

Love always,






Put Whom First?

I was driving down the street and passed a church with a sign outside that said, “Put God first and you will always be happy.” I thought about this statement and honestly I do not think that it is correct.

God is very important in our lives, however, if God was first and foremost then we would need to ignore family and friends. In a world where God is first we may begin to dishonor people who do not think like we do. If God is first then we may start to do things in God’s name that was never intended by God, perhaps even start wars and destroy people and nations for what we think is right, in God’s behalf.

If we were created to put God first then why would we have come here to live? Something doesn’t make sense to me. We come to live here as the people of the world with different thoughts and different beliefs. If we put our belief in God gazastripabove others, then how do we ever live in peace and harmony? If we cannot live in peace and harmony how can we ever by happy? Looking at the image left, I think about what happens when people put God first.

So, whom do we put first? I was given a chance to ask two questions of an Angel. I did not know the best question to ask and when I discussed the importance of the questions with him he suggested a good question to ask is, “How do I love more?” So, I asked the question, “How do I love more?” He replied, “Learn to love yourself.” If this is the answer to a good question then perhaps I should put myself first, if I am to be happy.

If I put myself first then it implies that I ignore others for my own benefit. I don’t think I can do it this way because if I ignore my family then they are not happy and as a result I am not happy. Because I enjoy family I put them first and that makes me happy and because I enjoy being happy am I in effect putting myself first by putting them first?

I enjoy being liked by others so I make them important in my life. I used important rather than first because if others are not family and family is first then they hold a place between me and family. Is that true? HappyPeopleWorkingTogetherThere were many times when I placed work above family. Still, work provided an income which was important for my family to live and therefore by putting work first above family I was able to provide for my family which made them happy resulting in me being happy and because I did lots of good work my employer and co-workers were happy.

Given that all of the above is true, it would suggest that if we put others above ourselves and work together helping each other live that in the end we have put ourselves first because what we have done is made our self happy.

Whom do we put first? Think about it awhile and perhaps you will see that we need to put our selves and each other first in order to be happy.

Regardless of what you decide, God Loves You.

Love always,





I was thinking on a few things and I recall my brother telling me I was obsessive. I hardly thought it was true at the time and haven’t given it much thought since until this morning.  I asked myself if I have a obsessive personality.

Is it right or wrong to be obsessive? Once again I pulled up an online dictionary to find that to obsess is to let an idea or thought continually preoccupy or intrude on your mind.  Ok, I have a lot of thoughts and ideas that fill and intrude on my mind, but they come and go and though the thought may intrude on my find with some level of frequency I would hesitate to call it continually.

What are things I think about frequently? Well, I think about my wife, things I could do to upgrade our home, how to save money, how much money we have to spend, food, my weight, friends, writing, taxes, body pain, the weather, children, grandchildren, people I have known in the past, mistakes I have made and dreams of things I could do in the future. I think about things that I do that I should not do and things that I say that I should not say. I think about what to do and what to say. I often think about how to live, I rarely think about how to die. I often think about who I am.

I have all of these things that go through my mind, so which is more prevalent than the others, what thoughts could be called obsessive? For example, in terms of money I track money earned, to be earned, spent and to be spent. I have multiple worksheets to track this and use both online applications and other computer tools to track where we have been and where we will be in the future. I could call this obsessive but I would rather call in prudent planning, but even planning can become obsessive.

I must concede that I am surely obsessive about many things and there are times that I let some things intrude into my mind much more frequently than they should and so it is for so many that let hate intrude into their minds.

I often think about how to live. Very frequently, I wonder why all the hate is necessary. Though a small percentage of the whole, there are so many that promote and/or practice hatred and violence. Life hangs in a precarious balance.

I think about the pain of innocent children as they witness the carnage of hatred that surrounds their lives. I ask the question, “why is it necessary?” I think I understand how it is possible to hate like that, but when you think about it you may discover what I know to be true. The truth, for thousands of years people have fought and killed each other, each act of violence and hatred generating 10 fold new hatred and violence. In the history of the earth we have never ever seen a case where hatred and violence has led to peace and harmony. It has never happened, so why would anyone imagine that an obsession for hate and violence can or could create a better world for their children?

I am obsessive, are you? Regardless of what you say or do, God Loves you.

Love always





There is Good in all Things

He asked me if I would be interested in accepting a new challenge. Without hesitation I said I was definitely interested. So began a journey that lasted over 300 days to see the good in all things for 30 consecutive days.

If we look at recent events around the nation we can make a clear argument that no good can be found in the deadly tragedy at a night club in Orlando Florida. The horror of the ordeal, coupled with the immeasurable fear, suffering, sorrow, and hate of the victims, families, and nation suggest that this event is an exception. However, this is not the case.

From the tragedy we find strangers helping strangers survive the ordeal. In the aftermath we find a new solidarity among the people of the nation who look upon all the victims as just another human suffering for no other reason than the hatred of one person or group of persons. All stand in condemnation of the act. It is that bond of love and friendship for fellow citizens of the world that all unite as one; sharing the grief, setting aside moral or cultural differences even for a little while.

In the aftermath of the tragic event politicians stand up and call for immigration and/or gun control. What is the good in this when in both cases the rights of the people are once again trampled upon? Perhaps we can recognize one politician or another who suddenly see that they serve all people, not just a few. Perhaps we see someone whose eyes are finally opened to the difficulties we have in protecting all the people of the world and having opened their eyes they begin to look for ways to promote peace and understanding in order for everyone to enjoy a happy life.

It was on this day; a day after a tragic event,


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that I read a message from His Holiness The Dali Lama, where His Holiness spoke of new approaches to teaching the young about moral ethics outside the realm of religion. By taking this approach there will be a better way to promote understanding of people across nations. I remember the words spoken to me just a few years ago, “with understanding comes wisdom.”

There is good in all things. We cannot always see the good but with a small shift in our perspectives it may reveal itself. Search for the good, find the love. Love is the most powerful force in the Universe.

God loves you, love always,


First Up, then Down

I feel so great today, God has surely blessed me. Everything is going well, I rejoice is all that is happening. I pray every day and I am unhesitant to acknowledge that God is pleased that I am following the plan he has for me.  Wait…

Something happened. Things are changing; the bills has piled up then I lost my job. I struggle to support my family and then I get sick. What is this, I ask God. What did I do wrong? Has the plan changed, am I being called to do something else? “God, what is your new plan for me?” I am confused.

First up, then down, what is this roller coaster ride that we call life? Is it God’s plan to build us up to see how we handle the high and then “bam,” pull the rug out from under us to see what we do when we are at our lowest?

It seems strange that God would treat us this way, yet when we read the Bible we find that this is what happened to Job. Job was a good man; a hard-working man who was devoted to God but then, God and Satan wrecked havoc on Job’s life to satisfy a bet. Does this happen to everyone, are we just cards on the table for God and Satan to wager on?

Ok, you caught me, but it is just a story to show the difficulty I have with the book of Job and what could be called the popular belief of Christians that God favors some over others. There is the implied that we can ask God to promote us over others; that God will strike down those that we do not like or that we war against.

I have heard people say they are following God’s plan for them or that they will wait for God to show them the way. Ok, perhaps I will try to help out here and perhaps save you some time.

First, I must say that whatever you choose to do with your life is alright with God. God never tells a person what to do. God never gives direction. If God were to speak to you then you would hear one thing only; “I Love You.”  And to hear those words spoken could really change your life, no other words are needed.

Does God have a plan for you? I would say that God’s plan for you is the same as God’s plan for the other 6 billion people of the world. The plan is that we exist. Wow, that is so simple, all we need to do to satisfy God’s plan for us is exist. Do we need to do anything special during that existence? Nope, nothing is required of us by God. Isn’t that awesome?

So, where does all the direction come from, the thought that I should do this or that I should do that? I could say, “God told me to do this …” but I would not be telling you the truth. So who told me to do this or to do that? The answer, I told me to do this or to do that.

Yes, it is true, 99.9% of the direction we get comes from our self. If we are awaiting God’s direction to do this or that, then we have a very long wait. In some cases I suppose this could be a good thing because by waiting we may prevent ourselves from doing something foolish, but the opposite is also true that we may miss an opportunity that we should have taken.

So, what about those ups and downs? Why does that happen? Why is it that one day everything is going great and the next day, “bang” it is all gone? Well, it may be that arrogance has stepped in and blocked us from listening to others thus causing a rift that we are too prideful to repair. We  become the beneficiaries/victims of our own changing personality.

Swami RamaSamadhi taught that we should learn to control our mind. By taking control of our mind we can view the ups and downs the same, it is just something that happens. I would suggest that if we are able to better control our minds and see things that happen with equal measure then we would be less likely to create animosity among our peers. With control of the mind we can eliminate our fear and if we are not afraid then we can begin to appreciate who we are, no matter what we are doing.

Find out more on understanding where you fit into the universe by reading my books,

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Transitions, A Spiritual Evolution and


Perspectives, Thirty Days to Life.

Always remember God loves you no matter what you do.

Love always



Peace Comes From Within

This morning I sat in my office listening to the rain outside my window. The gentle drumming of the rain accompanied by the flow of water down the eves provides a wonderful symphony to my ears. As I sat back and listened I could also hear the birds singing. It was such a peaceful moment. It was peaceful because that was what I chose.

Peace comes from within. There is no external force available that can bring peace to you. You are always in control of what happens within. This may be hard to believe or understand when it seems the world could be falling apart all around you. However, it is one of the simple truths.

I do not always feel at peace. Many times I let frustration and impatience dominate my mind. When that happens it never helps me accomplish anything. Rather, frustration only leads to anger. If I would allow it, anger would lead to hate. Such a path is never a good path. When I find myself on this path I must immediately stop and take notice of all that is around me. There is good in all things so I just need to find it. By looking at what is happening around me, and evaluating the cause of the frustration that I feel, I can work on understanding. With understanding I can reduce my frustration and bring peace back to my mind.

Alternatively, I can hide behind excuses that this or that happened; that they did this or they said that. I could let other things control my mind, but what benefit is it to me that I would give control of my mind to some external influence?

It is not an easy task to break the pattern of anger and frustration.


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We all have our pride, we have our desire, we have our beliefs. However, these types of emotions are not always used in the most productive ways. When used negatively we impose our own will upon others and then they too suffer their own frustration and anger. To break the cycle of frustration and anger we can only start with ourselves. Yet, when we are able to effectively eliminate our own frustration there is no guarantee that the frustration felt by others will equally be eliminated. What we will see is that we will no longer feel the personal impact of how others interact with us.

Peace comes from within when you are able to change your perspectives.

God Loves You.

Love always



The Search For Patience

Though I walk along this path, patience still eludes me. IMAG0285I know this simple truth. I am reminded of this truth many times during the day as I go about the act of living. I struggle to be patient in conversations with my family, as I talk to contractors and service people helping me at my home, or when on the phone with other service providers. I struggle with my patience as I criticize myself for my own faults and misgivings. I am a very impatient person with a desire to learn patience.

I wonder about patience. I have met many people whom I consider to be patient and I ask myself how they became that way. Are people born patient or do they learn patience? Perhaps people are born patient and then some, like me, learn impatience.angry I know that we learn many things differently and that difference can be the result of the family and social environments wherein we are raised. If I grow up in a high stressed environment then that environment can have a significant impact on my emotional development.

Impatience can lead to frustration; frustration to anger; anger to hate. Hatred and has caused significant irrational behavior of the people of the world. Was this all driven by the social environment from wherein they were raised?

I don’t think that I can place all of my impatience on my environmental past. Sure, I can acknowledge that my past has shaped me from both a positive and negative perspective. fear2However, once I developed cognitive thought, from that point onward I had the responsibility to make my decisions based on what I knew. If I did not know then I had the responsibility to learn; a responsibility to expand my cognitive abilities.

Things can occur that are not always consistent to how I would prefer. When this happens I generally try to correct the such things to my preference and if I fail I begin to fell frustrated. When I allow it the frustration can often become overwhelming to the point that I become angry and lash out verbally against another. In the distant past I was did not limit myself to verbal abuse. Time has evolved and I have evolved along side of it however, I have yet to arrive at the point that I can always sidestep frustration.

In my next book, Patience, I will address the obstacles that I have encountered as I work to modify my behavior from being impatient to being patient. The path to patience is a journey not a destination, a journey that is worth taking. I am willing to take that journey. I am willing to overcome the obstacles that I place in front of myself so that I may learn.

“Understand, with understanding comes wisdom.”

God loves you, love always



Talking With Angels

In August of 2014 I spent 20 minutes in a live radio interview with Stu Taylor. You may listen to this interview  by going to my web site and selecting the links to the audio clips.

I enjoyed speaking with Stu. At one point he asked me about talking with Angels and asked about it saying he had never spoke with an Angel. I responded, “Are you sure?”

One morning while I was walking my usual path I saw a young lady walking toward me. I was captivated by her. She was very tall and thin; her steps gliding silently along the walkway. As I drew closer I noticed the sharp features of her face. I saw the soft gaze with which she looked at me; her face so filled with peace and love. As she passed she nodded to me as I whispered “good morning.” I encountered her at the same location a couple of times then another time I saw her walking away from me. The last time I saw her she was in a park area playing with some children. I was fairly certain that they could not see her sitting among them.

Have you ever encountered an angel?zophiel_symbol It is hard to know when you are blessed with an angel in your presence. They do not all appear as a tall thin young lady. However they appear will always be dependent on the situation. Perhaps you will never see an angel but always know that they are always with us, not to alter our lives but rather to help us endure.

I have talked with Angels. The greatest message that they have ever given me is that God loves us all unconditionally. Isn’t that awesome?

Love Always,